I don’t think i am pregnant. TWW is officially up on Friday, but pretty sure I know the outcome. But I am not sure what happens next.
The plan for this year was so clear- an early cycle in Jan or Feb, collecting lots of eggs, fertilising and freezing all. The some FETs, in the hope that it is the combination of egg collection/stimulation that is throwing off the implanting.
But we derailed that pretty quickly and the new plan was very low key.
The problem is, I don’t know how much longer we can do this. The original plan B was to leave the country next January, if no pregnancy resulted. This is still tempting, but that assumed a couple more attempts during the year.
We head off to Japan in late June, so there will be no cycle after this, and no cycle after that (we don’t have the meds for a cycle in May/June and the timing is not provident for the cycle thanks to the week overseas). I am scheduled for foot surgery at the end of July, so that will probably not be good a cycle either (not sure, suppose I could ask).
Foot Surgery? I hate it when blogs refer obliquely to other issues and can’t find the info. I have a bone growth on the top of my left instep, about an inch back from the start of my two middle toes (and the tendon is stretched over it). When I first saw a Dr about this, he said I had probably had it from childhood (this was three years ago, coincidentally right before the first pregnancy). I didn’t think so, and the last three years it has grown (which this particular type of problem is NOT supposed to do in adults), and is now more painful and a bit of an issue with certain shoes. So could have been the hormones, could have been a childhood and life full of soccer. My left foot is the dominant one, and the growth is in that sweet spot for kicking.
Anyway, I have always had problem feet, and they have had lots of handling by shoe fitting people and podiatrists and the like. I also had a couple of years of synchronised swimming, which would also have made it obvious (it’s very obvious when i point my feet). So, adult onset. It’s only day surgery, and I get to rest off wrk for a couple of weeks, plus will have swollen foot for 3 months. Not ideal babymaking situation then.
So, I am getting fed up of Brisbane/QLD/Australia. The politics are depressing, the alternate whining/smugness of the population frustrating and the cost of living is on the high side, for no discernible benefit. I like my job though. My husband is getting frustrated with his job.
Travel and/or living overseas appeals. For me that pretty much means the end of the trying for babies/kids. The older I get, the more intervention required and if we are traveling that will be difficult from both a money perspective and a logistics one. So I view travel as the end point. My husband doesn’t, so he is more enthused about travel soon, although he now does get my point as well.
I am not ready to throw in the towel, even on IVF, but i don’t know if I can do the cycle for frosties, knowing that we plan to leave the country in 4 months.