Updating

So, I have not been posting.

No really good reason, just life is busy and I am stressed. I write the posts in my head, they just never make it further.  

Tomorrow is my 40th birthday.  It isn’t an easy one.  I remember back when I turned 25, a co-worker (who was in her 30’s) stated that she had a mental breakdown at that age.  This was the day before my 25th birthday.  She had struggled with her expectations of what her life would be like at that age and the reality.   That was not an issue for my 25th or 30th.  But apparently it is this time.  I have been struggling with this for a few months,off and on. Hopefully it gets easier after the big day.

I don’t have huge celebrations planned- a lunch tomorrow with some co-workers (and my boss told me that I didn’t need to rush back afterwards- which would be great, but I have stuff to doooo) then dinner out with my husband (venue yet to be determined).  A big family dinner on Saturday- my siblings are coming to town for that. 

I am going try to write more, but we shall see.